My heart is in that hurting sort of place. I knew these kind of days would resurface, even after coming to a place of peace and contentment with our childlessness. But it seems to be impossible to completely ignore the desire and if I lost all hope that may not even be healthy, I don’t know. […]
Contentment with Infertility (?!)
I left you hanging back in January when I wrote a post about the first and only round of infertility testing I have undergone. After many writing detours, I will return to the subject which stands in forefront of my mind and, because of your friendships, many of yours. It has been another 4 months […]
God First, God Second, God Third.
As I journey down the path of infertility, of waiting and hoping, demanding and pouting, praying and seeking, I have finally begun to discover a purpose to all of this. –God himself has not been the point of my life, all along. He may have been a priority, even the first priority, but He has […]
Does Giving Birth Make a Girl a Woman?
I had gathered with a large number of wonderful ladies and we were going around introducing ourselves. As part of the “about me” sentence, it was suggested that we share how many children we have and how old they are. Of all the women in the room (some younger than me), I was the only […]
Another Year Before Testing
Continued from Wednesday’s post. …And for the next 12 months, the lab requisitions stayed at the bottom of our metaphorical pile. We were in a new state, trying to make new friends, living with no health insurance. As upset as I was that we weren’t conceiving, beginning the hunt for a good doctor, then paying […]
The “Quick Fix” I Didn’t Take
Can I just say what an amazing blessing it has been to finally talk about the “elephant” in my room? It’s relief to not feel like I have to hide something, yes. But much beyond that, the outpouring of love, encouragement, and shared stories have been unexpected and beautiful. Thank you for being a friend. […]
Coming to Grips: August 2011
If this is the first time you’ve been to our blog (or if it’s a been a while), let me say welcome. Pull up a chair, bring a mug of your favorite tea, and join us. Right now we are in the middle of sharing a very personal struggle. For the first time ever, we […]
Journal Entry at the 12th Month
God has been working wonders in my heart over the past two years as we’ve journeyed down the road of infertility, and I can’t wait to share his goodness with you. But let’s back up the story and visit something I wrote June 9, 2011 (a year and a half ago), when my heart was […]
The One with a 31 Month Confession
Dear friends, I have something to confess. I have been keeping a very large corner of my heart a secret from you all for many months. I didn’t know if I should share or if this was something the Lord wanted me to keep private. And so I’ve waited for a peace about when to […]