For the first time in all these years of waiting for you, Child, I am anxious about tomorrow. Mother’s Day. The past couple of holidays I wasn’t really thinking about me and my sadness. I was thinking about how GREAT moms are and how they deserve to be celebrated. Inevitably, however, there would be a moment when […]
Regional Dialects
Well, Child, I hope you enjoy this little expository on the states in which I’ve resided. I’ve wanted to write this post for at least a year and finally got around to doing it. I want you to remember to be humble when you go to your friend’s house down the street or when you […]
Taking Notice
Dear Child of Mine, I can’t wait to meet you, to observe you at play, to listen to your words, to learn what’s important to you. I wonder what your favorite toy will be and if you’ll be attached to a blankie. I hope I watch you with the same addicted admiration I have for […]
The Rescue of a Lamb
Dear Child, I am convinced that your Daddy is going to take incredibly good care of you. He will meet your needs, and tend to you with a kindness beyond requirement. He does this for me on a daily basis. Lavishing love. And on Sunday, his actions were more valiant and loving than I could ever have […]
Everything is Happening
After four years of infertility and not seeking treatment of any kind, here we are in the middle of our first round of fertility intervention. In two hours I will be looking at an ultrasound to see if if that egg, that very specific half of your DNA, Child, is ready to have it’s ovulation timed perfectly. […]
Pills and Prayers
So I finished the last of the Clomid pills this morning. I did it. And I didn’t leave a wake of wreakage from any emotional breakdowns. (Although you might want to ask your father about the truth in that one.) The medication left me feeling a little off, a little withdrawn, and a little moody, but […]
The Best Ever Compliment
Our Easter celebration was sandwiched between a week long trip to Michigan and our pastor-spouse conference 6 hours south. Despite the hustle, we celebrated well. This holiday is the pinnacle of our faith, Child. The church calendar begins in Advent, expecting the birth of Jesus, and carries us through to his sacrificial death and victorious […]
Loved: Deep and Wide
Dear Child of Mine, Do you know how loved you are? You would not be able to comprehend the love that your friends and family have already lavished on you, even in these days pregnant with hope alone. We are nearing the end of our fourth year of infertility, an unexpected journey that has been more beautiful and […]
My Friend, Wayne
In the shadow of your wings, O Lord Almighty, will I take refuge until the storm of destruction has passed by. Psalm 57:1 Wednesday evening, March 26th, 2014, my good friend Wayne Burlison went home to be with Jesus. Just six days before his passing, I wrote he and his wife, Lisa, this message: For […]
Biting Bullets
To some it may seem your father and I have been a bit passive in this infertility journey. There are so many tests to be taken, procedures to be performed, personal boundaries to be invaded, dollars to be spent, money to be saved, appointments to be made, advice to be followed. The options for infertile […]